a little home sick.
I’ve been here three weeks now, most days it doesnt seem that way but other days it does, I’ve sort of found my groove now i just need to find something to do on the days he’s not here. Today i ventured out to the local strip mall to pick up a couple things. I wish there were more things to do closer. I dont mind walking but i dont want to have to walk 2 miles to be able to do something. I wish i were brave enough to venture out and do things i am sure i would enjoy. I’ve come to realize i need to get out to keep my sanity. The first few weeks here staying in the house didnt seem so bad but now i’m to the point where i have to get out or my days run together and i dont feel like i have accomplished anything. I’ve looked into various classes to join but nothing screams at me. Jay mentioned going to the gym, in the morning when he gets home from work. I think that would be great for both of us. More so him than me… but i still would like to have something of my own, an escape from the dog sitter i have become again. (:
I got to actually talk to my mom today. Over the last few weeks i havent really had a chance to sit down and catch up with her. To find out how things are going there. I love being here, every ounce of me wants to be here but it’s really hard being this far out of the loop. Melanie’s due date is tomorrow and they are just leaving her alone until her next dr appt next thursday UNLESS something happens before then. Part of me doesnt mind not being therefor it… part of me misses being in the middle of it all. It’s a tough road but i accept it.
We went to a coworkers party sunday night and my drunk ass took a nasty fall. I have a upside down horse shoe type bruise on my left upper thigh and i took a chunk of skin off my knee. It hurt to sit for a few days but i am slowly recovering. Had a great time – then again any drunk time is a good time to me. heh
We moved somethings around the other day. I wish things moved at a faster pace around this house and i wish i had a lot more control of it. I think that and the constant napping are my two biggest gripes currently. Other areas are absolutely wonderful. My mom asked how things were going today and i said “really, really good” She said “really, really, REALLY” good or just really, really good”. There are so many little things that people wouldnt find important that have changed. It’s hard to explain how small things make you feel more like you belong… and that’s a really really REALLY good start.