Well really we’ve been back since last night but I haven’t had a chance to tell you that until now. “I” had a pretty great time, I enjoyed his family and Christmas this year muchly. However much like the last few Christmas’s yesterday was rough on me. Christmas day away from my family didn’t bother me but the day before and the day after did. I think I did a pretty good job of keeping it together though. I’m hoping that I can talk Jay into spending Christmas in Nova Scotia next year so he can experience the greatness of it.

I scored gift wise considering I was the ‘outsider’ this Christmas. When Jay stacked all my gifts up around me it appeared like I had more than most people did but that was alright with greedy me. I didn’t get the million dollar necklace I requested and I may never let him live that down but I did score some great things… so I wont make a huge deal out of the necklace more than once a week…

It snowed a little Christmas day but it didn’t stick to the ground. ): The traffic on the way back wasn’t so great and the weather is cold and rainy here. Have I ever told you how much I HATE cold rain? No? Well I hate cold rain… Bring on the snow!

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As usual i am waiting on the other half of this relationship. He told me last night he wanted to leave between 8 and 9 which really means 10-1030am in Jaytime - it’s like a delayed version of what the rest of us use. (: .

I got my gifts from my mom a week ago last Thursday, Amanda’s arrived Saturday or Sunday. I finished shopping for picky-pants Friday. We / mostly him finished shopping for his family yesterday. I think that’s all we need to have taken care of on this end. Now comes the long drive.. with good conversation… *fingers crossed* All the gifts we sent out two weeks ago arrived on time. I am only slightly worried about the thing we sent Mel, it was a little late hitting the mail route… so i really hope it gets to her by today.

As truly excited as i am about spending my first Christmas with Jay i am a little sad. I really didnt think i would be until it hit me yesterday. I’m gonna be an adult about it and suck it up but not getting to see my family open their gifts on Christmas morning is going to be hard. So Amanda make sure you tell our mother that i was a weepy mess about it and that you wanted her to know but i didnt want her to know it bothered me.. That’s your mission should you choose to accept it.. This way she feels good about me missing her but i dont have to be teased about it later. (:

Each of the last of the last four Christmas i have found lonely mostly because even though i was surrounded by my family and friends i was alone. Having a man isnt something i feel i need but i never really found it hard until Christmas rolled around and i didnt have someone to snuggle with. I am extremely thankful that this Christmas will be different.. I just wish i could have him and my family on this occasion.

With that mushy mess i wish you a Happy Holiday. Stay safe and be good.!

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I should have more to say but I don’t. I’m not sure where the last three weeks have gone. I know I have had some pretty amazing moments and some pretty low ones over the last 21 days. I haven’t felt that good in the last couple weeks. I don’t know if it’s the climate but it seems like when it rains here my sinus’s go insane and I end up with some pretty nasty headaches. I don’t tend to be a sickly person. I get headaches and ear infections. … both make me cranky. ):

Arizona was amazing; I was in total awe of how much I adored the landscape. I never figured there would be so much beauty in brown landscape. I really wish it had been more of a vacation and lasted longer. The weather in Phoenix was pretty good but the other places required more clothing than I brought therefore making it less enjoyable than it could have been.

I am a little shocked that Christmas is four days from now. I cant believe it’s snuck up on me like that. I did manage to get all my gifts sent out last week along with most of my Christmas cards so hopefully they reach their destinations before Santa. We’re spending Christmas with Jay’s sister, husband and their two girls. I’m a little nervous about spending more than few hours with these people. They gave me no reason to feel this way but I have never spent Christmas with anyone but my own family and I am not up on how other people do the ho-ho thing. Do they get nekkid and kiss under the mistletoe? Will there be enough groping and hot chocolate for my liking? It’s all new and I am being silly but I am not sure how I feel about being away from my mommy and two sisters for the first time…..

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Jay has been a hibernating bear this week. He’s spent roughly 18 or so hours of each day since Sunday night sleeping – he says he’s sick I think he’s avoiding me. I’d like to say I am okay and understanding about it but frankly it’s starting to annoy me. (: Hopefully he feels better before I snap while he’s sleeping and cut off some part of his body he likes – don’t think I’d cut off a part I like either… after all it’s all about my satisfaction in this here relationship.

We head to Phoenix tomorrow and by the sounds of the weather reports not soon enough. Apparently (and I say apparently because the weather people / people here are all kinds of fucked up when it comes to the weather) there are three storm events coming to this part of the world over the course of the next three to four days. You’d think by the sounds of it that the world was coming to an end. I don’t know but I find it totally unbelievable and funny how they react to the weather. Maybe because where I come from when it snows it SNOWS.. There isn’t this big pre show before you get 2-4 inches of snow.

So, as I was saying before I got distracted by the weather like everyone else we head to Phoenix Sunday. Jay is going on a course that he was supposed to go on in September. I think he’s taking me with him to make up for the fact he missed my mothers wedding (:. I’m more than a little excited about this but I’ll never show it. First off for whatever silly reason I am thrilled to be traveling by plane with Jay for the first time. I am not sure why this seems like such a highlight for me.. Maybe because every trip I have taken on an airplane has consisted of JUST me and the thought of not going alone is lovely. Then there is going to a dry warm place when it’s not so nice here. I’d like to say the thought of lying around for a week will be well appreciated but I do that now so it’s just like being at home. There is the thought of getting to see another state - for a girl who hasn’t managed to see all the provinces in her own country I am sure thrilled to be seeing another state.. I am such a bad Canadian. I think mostly I am little more than excited about the thoughts of seeing the Grand Canyon, Hoover Dam and Vegas.

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