The Ultimate Boyfriend Survey

July 30th, 2007 @ 1:59 am

History
Where did you two first meet?: In a chatroom, then face to face in an airport.
When exactly did you two first meet?: I cant remember the exact date but sometime in the month of September 1997. Face to face august 6th 2004.
What was your first impression of him?: What a complete Jerk, this must be one of those losers you meet online (:. (online) Boy he looks some nervous ( face to face )
When did you start liking him?:Not until almost two years later after i was able to really sit and chat with him. I came to realize that beyond the smart-ass exterior he was truly a sweetheart.
When did you two start going out?: I dont know that we ever really started going out. We remained close friends until they day we slept together. I think to me that was the turning point from just being BFF to going out. He may disagree..
How was with your first kiss with him like?: It was pretty intense, I remember thinking ‘let’s get it on”.
Is he your first boyfriend? If not, then which?: No, there were a few before him.
Were you his first girlfrind? if not, then which? Nope, nor will I even be his first wife if that ever happens. (:

TGIF

July 27th, 2007 @ 6:31 pm

Thank God it’s Friday but i think i might be melting. it’s hovering around 100 with the humidity and this little Eskimo doesnt much like that.

One more week of work then i think i’ll be heading to see my sisters for a week or so. I plan to possibly apartment hunt with Melanie and perhaps get shit faced for my birthday.

Oh, and starting next week i will be the proud owner of a house. My mother went to see her lawyer today and is having her house put in my name. Since i dont have any outstanding debts and the house was in my last name anyway it makes it quite easy to gift to me. This way hopefully no one can go after it if she ends up going to court because of my ex step father.  (:.

lost

July 26th, 2007 @ 12:56 am

I wish I knew what was wrong with me lately, I can cry, freak out or laugh at the drop of a hat for no given reason. I’ve also got this self-loathing thing happening. I am so far from that type of person but lately I just hate the way I look and the person I have become. I have tons of thoughts swimming around in my head and one day I am sure that’s how I feel and that’s how it going to go then the next day I talk myself out of it.

If I sit back and look at the person I was five years ago I cant even tell you if it makes me happy or sad about who I am now. I’m the same person at the core but my personality has changed so much in the last few years that I just cant seem to figure out which one I am anymore.

I’m never alone anymore but most of the time I feel like I am alone. There are tons of people around me who are supportive and amazing in their own ways but I truly feel alone. I try to be outgoing and social but most of me wants to crawl in a hole and tell the world to fuck off. I think I have people around me thinking everything is all right when I am really not sure it is.

I truly have no idea where my life is headed and for the first time I think that scares me. I don’t know if I have reached a breaking point or I’ve been stagnant for long that I cant seem to move in a new direction.

I feel like I am spinning out of control with no sign of stopping…

google

July 24th, 2007 @ 11:45 am

This is completely meaningless dribble, however this morning when i opened firefox and went to type in ‘bevie.net’ I accidentally somehow entered it into the google search bar rather than the location bar.

I dont know how many of you have ever googled yourself or your site but i have never done that. I’m usually a pretty nosey / curious person but it never crossed my mind to do that. For whatever reason i was a little surprised by the results. The first one that came made me blink. I know i didnt write that about my site “The personal web log of a web site builder and designer”. So who writes this stuff, do they have a person who surfs the web and decides what to say?

have you seen my pussy?

July 24th, 2007 @ 12:58 am

I called my mother from work tonight as she seemed to want someone to talk to “if you got some free time call me tonight…”  I am sure it’s being alone and having so much going on….

Anyway..  she told me she hadnt seen my kitty in over a day.  The fact that she is worried, worries  me. sigh   She said she checked the ditches and said she might have been eaten by a coyote.  I hope this isnt a way of getting me home…and i really hope the kitty is alright!

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