Life… or something else like it..
I think the moment I entered my thirties I changed. My life isn’t where I thought it would be not that I ever had this life of mine mapped out. Somewhere in the last year I changed from this semi-emotional nutcase to a super-emotional nutcase. Things that never used to bother me somehow tear me up inside. Words and phrases that used to roll off me now bring me into a state of depression. I worry constantly about things where as before I was never a worrier..
I don’t know if this time in my life has brought on a rush of hormones or if it’s just me battling against where I think my life should be. I feel like I am on this slow moving ride and the rest of the world is moving by at a faster pace leaving me to wonder where I am and what just happened. There are days when I couldn’t be happier and days when I am sure the end of the world is coming. For the better part of my life I was over-positive, I never let things bother me and I was sure things would work out in the end. Now I am just starting to think that life is passing me by and I either need to speed up or slow down before I miss something important.