Sometimes I look around or at him and wonder. Looking back over the last ten years I cant seem to remember when it started to become a reality. Sometimes I’m bewildered by how I ended up here and I often think it’s all a dream - sometimes an amazing dream, sometimes close to a nightmare (: but a dream none the less.. I find it hard to believe that somehow I have known him for nearly a decade, I know so much about him yet it seems like this relationship just started yesterday.

I am often caught off guard at how intently i listen when he speaks ( This could be a good reason why I remember so many things he tells me or it could just be that I am a woman and I pay attention when people speak . heh). I could listen to him talk for days. A lot of the time when I don’t have to be watching him as he talks I’ll just close my eyes and somehow I consumed by how much i am truly in love with his voice. I’m not really sure if that’s odd but it is completely soothing. I’m pretty sure it has to do with listening to him for years before I got to meet him face to face.

I wrote this while he was gone and I’m probably missing him more than my reclusive self cares to admit but frankly I dig him muchly ..

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Things aren’t necessarily going to go well for you today, Beverly. There is the potential of a bit of conflict between you and others. You may feel a bit lost in the fog. Strap on your compass and you’ll be fine. Realize that you are apt to make it through this day much better if you approach every situation from the other person’s perspective. Think more of others than of yourself. Be sensitive and receptive.

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JAY COMES HOME TOMORROW!

Every time I watch Cast Away the crash scene always gets me. I know before it starts that it’s coming and even though I have no idea what it would be like it seems so realistic.. eh..

Eating lunch out by your self is kinda depressing. Do you suppose that’s one of the reasons they invented drive thrus? So single people felt less single?

JAY COMES HOME TOMORROW!

I am officially bored but cant seem to bring myself to clean my bathroom.

My sister’s birthday is this week and I have yet to mail the card. Oh, by the way Melanie.. Guess what? Your card is going to be late. (:

JAY COMES HOME TOMORROW!

And finally I dyed my hair and after years of rotating hair color every other month I’m not sure I am cool with not having butternut any more. I could redye it but it might all fall out as it’s damaged enough as is.. sigh

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I am officially starting to miss my Canadian junk food. I swear, Americans have no idea how bad they are being ripped off in the potato chip and chocolate bar world. I have yet to find a single thing that tastes the same, whether it be Coke or Kraft dinner. Normal day to day food I can live with but when it comes to junk food I just cant seen to find anything to compare to my favorites..

How I wish I lived close enough to the border so I could take my ass across it and buy one if not all the things listed below

- All Dressed Chips. le sigh
- Ketchup Chips.
- Roasted Chicken.
- Wunderbar - Mmmmmm!
- Mr Big Bar
- Coffee Crisp..
- Slowpokes..

I’m sure there are more things that make me happy but frankly those are my favorites and I miss them..

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