Why are all the questions in capitals but one?

July 26th, 2005 @ 1:11 am

1. ONE WISH?
Would world peace be asking too much?

2. ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER?
i can be both

3. WHAT’S YOUR WORST FEAR?
that things wont work out.

4. AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC?
for a time I was

5. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF “REALITY” TV?
I only watch certain shows.. but whatever does it for you.

6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
Not normally.. now and then though..

7. WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?
I guess.

8. IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?
Nope.. I long for marriage and babies.

9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?
off white

10. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
nah

11. HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?
nope

12. ANY SECRET TALENTS?
No – plain old boring bevie.

13. WHAT’S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?
I don’t know.

14. Is Jay Leno Funny?
sometimes

15. CAN YOU SWIM?
yes

16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE “DONNIE DARKO”?
I have..

17. DO YOU GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THE OZONE?
only when I am baking because of it.

18. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE ROLL POP?
287.

19. CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?
slowly

20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?
yes i have

21. ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD?
nope – but my mamma says I shoulda been.

22. DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUAL PENCIL SHARPENERS?
Manual.

23. WHAT’S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?
When they make it legal to hunt the stupid I will be more for it.

24. IS THERE MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
hopefully

25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Not so much.

Let me introduce myself..

July 25th, 2005 @ 12:27 am

So lets try and recap what’s been going on in my life for the last month or so. I have never been a hardcore blogger but I am running way under my usual non-important rambles.

- Life in this little town is very boring, my life was never very interesting but the only excitement seems to be the gossip around town. Which there is plenty of , I never forgot how it worked in a small town but I had forgot how bad it could be.

- My youngest sister is moving out on her own in less than four weeks. There is almost eleven years between us and I never thought I had much in common with her. I am glad that I have spent the last four months living with her and getting to know her as well as I have. I am going to miss having her around; she’s become a good friend.

- My back is finally feeling much better. There are days that it really bothers me but for the most part I can bend over and spit my toothpaste in the sink without screeching in pain.

- Which brings me to my next point - I am 91% sure I am heading back to the gym tomorrow. I wish I had someone to go with but I guess it really wont matter once I go and realize it’s not as scary as I pretend it is. I think the thing that has kept me away so long besides my back is that it’s quite the walk. Not a long, long walk – but with the temperatures we’ve been having lately I just don’t want to walk in that heat.

- There are just somethings a mother shouldn’t tell you. Mine has taken to telling me things that I don’t think I would want to hear from my best friends let alone the person who gave birth to me. I know it’s my fault because I am so understanding and knowledgeable (: … but sometimes it’s just too much info.

- I’d like an honest opinion from those who really know me. I keep getting told how much I have changed in the last two or three years. Was I really that bad to begin with? I really don’t feel like I have changed, I still feel like the same person only much happier in my own skin and where I am heading with my life.

- I am hoping to go get all my belongings up at the house in a couple weeks and put them upstairs. It’s been weird not having all the things I once lived with, with me. Also, I think once Miss Melanie moves out I will be moving upstairs. This has me excited – more space and no listening to my mothers bed squeak – OH and more privacy!

- Finally, I will post some of the pictures tomorrow or Tuesday.

takes a bow.

come back later

July 23rd, 2005 @ 8:02 pm

There is nothing to see here.

Move along..

Some Days

July 20th, 2005 @ 4:15 pm

I feel like a hamster on a wheel that cant get off. ..

I am off to Fredericton to see my sister graduation with her B ed. I am really not interested in spending over 2 hours in an un-air-conditioned car. Plus it’s supposed to be up around 38c (100f) with humidity in the 80’s and 90‘s

I just don’t have anything to say so don’t be surprised if you don’t hear from me for another 2 weeks. Though I do have a bunch of pictures I could post.. but even that seems like a lot of work.

My birthday is just under 3 weeks away and as much as I love my birthday it’s got me feeling unsettled. I always thought I would be married and have at least one child by my 30th birthday. My life just isn’t where I thought it would be right now. Not that it is necessarily a bad thing… but hey

And with that I said more than I even planned to

Have a happy day..

maybe tomorrow

July 7th, 2005 @ 4:30 am

I cant seem to get into the whole blogging thing the last few months. There are so many things going on in my bored mind that’s it’s hard to stick to something long enough to write about it.

So many times i have taken a pen and a piece of paper and started writing down what was on my mind that day. Because these days there is so much crap going on around me smirk with this super busy life I lead . What’s that saying “ Idol hands are the devils playground?” Really i think i am so used to very little drama / constant contact in my life after living by myself for two years that the slightest upset seems to throw me into a tailspin.

I hadnt thought of myself as a cranky person or one who worried but lately it’s all i seem to be doing. There are moments when i am overcome by that feeling you get when you first realize you are in love and the person you love loves you back. It’s really the best feeling in the world as far as i am concerned but with that comes the long fall down when i realize i dont get to keep that feeling all the time.

I honestly think that is what is causing my mood swings. I have never been more in love than i am today but when something comes up in that relationship or just simple crap in my day to day life i am brought crashing down.

I am really trying to adjust to the opposite feelings I am coping with. It’s hard to imagine being so happy, as happy as I can ever remember being then come crashing down. I am just struggling with the two.

if that makes any sense..

So maybe tomorrow I’ll tell you about my trip and other things. Maybe a picture or two, I did have a fabulous time.. I’ll say that much