Not tonight, i have a headache..
This hasn’t been a great week. Nothing really terrible happened, and some amazing conversations took place but I am so very happy it’s over. I cant even explain the stress and sadness that seemed to surround it.
Plus the last two days haven’t really been good nicotine wise. Today in fact has been my worst day yet I am going to have the cleanest teeth in the world as it’s the only thing that seems to kill the craving for any amount of time besides sleep. If I had of been smart I would have gone and got some helpers but then I wouldn’t be doing it on my own. It’s funny how when you’re quitting you reason with yourself (or maybe it’s just me). I keep telling myself one quick puff will make the ache in my tummy go away. It’s like a constant battle between good and evil. Fortunately good is winning for now.. but I am sure evil will not go out without a fight.
I feel like crap.
All week I have had a headache and felt achy but I managed to struggle through taking Advil / Tylenol and various other medications to keep me on track. After I managed to doze off around 4:30am this morning I woke up at 5:30 feeling miserable.
I ache, I still have my headache, I have cramps in my belly and I feel sick. All I can say is this better not be the flu. I still have a 14 hour shift staring me in the face this evening. So I am off to sleep and if I don’t feel any better in four or five hours I am going to try and weasel out of that… which should be nearly impossible.
ugh