You spin me, right round…

May 30th, 2004 @ 6:09 pm

I was lying on the couch at work this morning, watching TV waiting for my bears to stir from their sleep. At about 6am I decided I would go wash my face and get cleaned up for the day, so I made my way to the bathroom. Once in the bathroom I started running water, wetting my face cloth.

Then it hit!

All of sudden I got really dizzy; I put my head down on the counter for a moment to see if it would pass. As the room started going dark I knew I had to make my way to the couch to lie back down before I fell and bashed my head off the toilet. This might not be so bad in my own home but I am liable to get pissed on at work by half blind old people.

I made my way to the living room in a blind daze. The twenty feet or so back to the living room seemed to be more like 500 hundred feet. Somewhere along the way I bashed my head on something leaving me with a lovely red bump for most of the morning. I am not sure how I made it as I literally slid along the wall barely keeping myself on my feet.

As soon as I hit the couch, face first I might add the room went spinning, I nearly threw up. It was like being on a non stop circus ride from hell. After about 10 minutes the dizziness passed, the room became clear again and I no longer wanted to vomit up my kidneys.

All morning I felt weak and if I moved too fast I got light headed. At first I thought maybe my electrolytes might be low as I have cut back on my sugar intake. I sucked back orange juice, cookies, doughnuts, chocolate milk, anything I could find that had sugar in it. Finally by noon I felt much better.

So I am not sure if it was my electrolytes going through withdrawal or if I have some nasty flu bug.

Answer the following

May 29th, 2004 @ 1:10 pm

I’ve been seeing this everywhere i go.. so if you cant beat ‘em.. join ‘em.

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When’s the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn’t?
15. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal/Blogger and see what I say about you?

this is the week that never ends

May 28th, 2004 @ 8:00 pm

I’m stuck in the middle of the work week that never seems to end. I cant believe it’s only Friday, I don’t know how many times today I have thought it was Sunday. The sad thing is I have only worked three shifts this week, I think the thing that seems to be making it worse is there are still four more shifts to go before I get a couple days off.

The one saving grace is that work is going smoothly lately, I’d like to say it’s work but I think it has a lot to do with my mood. There for a couple months I had been in some kind of funk where work just wasn’t doing it for me. I think it was around the time John died, the house was sad and empty feeling.

It’s hard not find favorites in most things we do, and that is no exception at work. Over the years with the various people who have crossed my path it has changed. It’s funny looking at the people who are there now. Two people who are there used to be my favorites, one because she was a sweet old woman (she turns 99 next week) but due to dementia she has slowly fallen to the “Do I really have to deal with this woman” list. The other has slowly just begun to annoy me with “My lips are peppery”, “Pray for me”, “I’m fainting away”, “Bring hot drink, my tongue is numb” The things that seems to bother me the most is her strolling down the hall with her hand on her ass or sweeping up/finding dirty toilet paper on her bedroom floor. Another one who bothers me if out only male resident right now; although as long as I am in a good mood I can deal with his mouth. Being called “a miserable bitch”, “a hateful slut”, “you stupid Ethiopian cunt”, “I cant wait to get down over the hill tomorrow to get away from you ‘ are you going to help me”, “I’m gonna get so and so in here and they’ll put you in your place” I know it all goes with the job but some days I just want to take up drinking.

Though, you and I know that usually with bad comes some good. This happens at my place of work, too. Like the new lady, she can be crabby and sulky but when you walk into her room at the start of the shift and she says “Oh, it’s you! I am so glad to see you. You are one of my favorites” How can you not enjoy your job on days like that? I think the only thing better than hearing that is when they remember your name. I think she rates as my favorite. There are two others that comes a close second. One is a holy terror when the shit hits, so to speak but very loving, cute and hard to resist when she’s clean. The other has slowly become the only one with anything going on downstairs and is sweet to talk to, just don’t expect to get her into the tub.

If I could have the answer to one question the question would be “Why is it when we get old and lose our minds do we have such a fear of bathing” Maybe I am just odd and think there nothing better than feeling clean *shrug*

Am I nekkid? I think I might be.

May 27th, 2004 @ 5:17 pm

I just woke from what seemed like a very scary dream at the time. It took place in an old apartment I used to live in about four or five years ago. At the time I hated it, looking back I almost think it was one of the best places I have lived. I think it was because it was a big place with lots of extra room, which I truly miss.

Anyway, back to the preempted dream sequence. I had been doing some travel by myself, for what reason I don’t know. The only person in the dream I knew where I was going I don’t even really talk to. In the dream I avoided seeing him even though he lived where I was staying. I arrived back home on a Friday night and returned to my apartment, headed to my bedroom, did my usual undressing ‘ stripping completely down leaving my clothes in pile and went to my suitcase looking for something comfy to wear. Things in the room didn’t seem right but I couldn’t figure out what it was, I was tired and looking to go shower off my travel.

Because Bren said so.

May 27th, 2004 @ 11:55 am

I have nothing to say, I am content and contentment means a boring bevie.

Thirteen random things you like:
01) Sugar
02) Stars
03) listening to the rain fall
04) masturbation
05) snuggling
06) movies
07) my kitties
08) bubble baths
09) sitting listening to music with all the lights off
10) chatting
11) baking
12) astrology
13) being silly

Twelve movies:
01) American Beauty
02) Fight Club
04) The Breakfast Club
05) How to Lose a Guy in Ten Days
06) Kill Bill
07) Ten Things I Hate About You
08) Lord Of The Rings ‘ Two Towers
09) Butterfly Effect
10) Beauty and the Beast
11) Con Air
12) Dogma

Eleven good bands/artists:
01) Blue Rodeo
02) Sarah Mclachlan
03) Radiohead
04) Our Lady Peace
05) Nirvana
07) Lifehouse
08) David Grey
09) Justin Timberlake
10) Foo Fighters
11) Dido

Ten things about you … physically:
01) frumpy
02) 5′6″
03) 34B
04) Female
05) 135 lbs
06) Size 8-9 shoes
07) blue eyes
08) brown hair
09) long toes
10) glasses

Nine good friends:
01) Martha
02) Jay
03) Becka
04) Brenny
05) Sandi
06) Tim
07) Amanda
08) Rob
09) Tasha

Eight favorite foods/drinks:
01) Chili Cheese Nachos
02) cookies
03) 7-up
04) Spaghetti
05) ice cream
06) Chicken Pot Pie
07) chocolate.
08) turnips