ooie gooey goodness
I’ve had a couple wonderful days, at first it didn’t seem like this week was going to be anywhere near as wonderful as last. I am left with this incredible feeling that I really can’t explain. At points I dreaded the words that were being sent my way, I don’t know if it’s because it opened old wounds or if it’s because those wounds weren’t really ever closed.
Behind the scenes there is this person that I look to for sympathy, advice, support and love that has always been the guiding light in times when I feel weak; they make me feel like its okay to be human and hurt. Someone I can’t hide things from and even now they never let me down.
Every time I realize a reason for the way I feel I am amazed that I never seen it before. I get overwhelmed every time I seem to open my eyes to another reason why i love them as much as I do. This one reason has been staring me in the face for years and I just never seen it. There are so many silly reasons that most people wouldn’t even begin to understand but I get so wrapped up in them. I always get lost in the minor details of why I love things.
I know I am not making much sense, but do I ever?
Life is good, I feel loved and more complete than I have felt in a long time.
I’m not looking back
I’ve had a lot on my plate in the last month. I just can’t seem to be as free as I was getting with my feelings here. Needless to say I dislike drama and I dislike it even more when it’s in my own life. I would like if things went my own way…smoothly.
I’ve learned a lot of things in the last month and come along way, I’m sick of one part of it and I am really ready to move on and not look back. I can finally see and feel the light at the end of the tunnel. It’s amazing to bask in this feeling, it’s all around me.
On a bright note I got to meet Timmy last Saturday, what a lovely treat that was. He’s just as I imagined only I got to talk to him in person. I’ve always put distance between myself and people online to avoid having to meet them. I always tried to get out of any meeting, not because I think they’re all crazy I just felt safer that way. Having had one great experience I am looking forward to the next… and I have my eyes set on who I want it to be.
Anyway, that’s enough for now. Have a good weekend. (:
currently
I’ve turned into a survey junkie, again.
current clothing: blue undies, black lace camisole thing.
current mood: happy.
current taste: cake
current hair: pinned back in a bun
current annoyance: wind blowing.. I can hear it!
current smell: cake
current thing you ought to be doing: I could go for some sex.
current jewelry: little heart ear rings, a necklace, four rings on my fingers, a belly button ring.. and one toe ring.
current book: I am still trying to get through Catcher in the Rye.
current refreshment: Sprite
current worry: getting my shopping done this week.
current crush: Same crush I have had for years
current favorite celebrity: Justin Timberlake
current longing: snuggles.
current music: GNR
current wish: to win me some money.
current lyric in your head: oh wont you please take me home.
current makeup (if you’re a girl!): I don’t have my war paint on yet.